Today is Tayler's Birthday

Today is Tayler's birthday, and I am missing her so much. It just doesnt feel right that she is not here on her birthday. My heart is breaking. It is harder today to be happy that she is with Jesus, because I would love nothing more than to take her face between my hands and wish her a happy birthday and kiss her and breath her in. I know she would have been very excited to turn twelve, only one year away from being an official teenager. I wonder what she would have wanted for her birthday. Would she wanted to get dressed up and go somewhere special or would she have wanted to have a party? I more than miss her.

Random Ramblelings

Last Thursday night my hubby and I went to dinner at B.J.s Brew House in Orlando, it was a work thing, Chris' boss took his people out for dinner. It was very nice, good food, and I got to meet some of the people my hubby works with. Anyway, apparently we missed Tiger Woods. He was there picking up some take out while we were leaving. Oh well.

Friday, Celebration to see the snow.

Sat., worked all day shopped all night.

Sun., church, lunch with friends, nap, dinner. Very good day.

Yesterday my dad called.

me:(whisper)hey
my day: sorry, is everyone asleep?
me: no just Joshua, whats up?
my day: its snowing
me: SHUT UP
my dad: no i swear
me: shut up
my day: really its been snowing all day

So I am really happy for my dad and all my family that lives in Las Vegas, they are getting an early Christmas present for sure. I remember the snow growing up, and I would love for my kids to be able to enjoy it.

Mon., lots of laundry, lots of school. Good day.

Tues., I had the brilliant plan to walk to Publix. I had to get some milk and some stamps and light bulbs nothing that couldnt wait for Chris to get home, but it was a nice day and I figured a walk would be nice. What I didnt figure was how far it was, and how much the wagon would weigh after I loaded Emily and Joshua into it. We went to McDonald's for lunch and then went on to Publix. It was a nice walk. Did some more laundry and some more school. Emily is doing so good.

My top three favorite Christmas gifts
1. my digital camera
2. my dyson vacuum cleaner
3. my sony under the counter c.d. radio. I use this all the time. Every time I am in the kitchen cooking or cleaning I have it on.

Taylers birthday is on Thursday. We are going to have a little party at my dad and Suzannes.
I miss her so much it hurts. I have been thinking about her past birthdays, the surprise party, the party at the bowling alley, and the family parties. She will be parting with Jesus this year.

Its Beginning To Look A Lot Like Christams

Baby its cold outside. It almost feels like a Winter Wonderland, even Frosty the Snowman would be chilly. Its not snowing but if it did I would say Let it Snow. My kids are so excited because Santa Claus is Coming to Town. We went to Publix yesterday and Megan remembered, "Oh Christmas Tree" so we picked one up. While slowly strolling the Christmas aisles at the store I love to Jingle Bells. All this Christmas cheer because long ago on a Silent Night, Away in a Manger the little baby Jesus lay sleeping. I wish Joy to the world this Christmas season.


I love Christmas music. Love it!

Too Late for Thankfulness?

I DONT THINK SO! This Thanksgiving blog may be late but I dont think its ever too late for thankfulness. Thanksgiving was great. We went to my dad and Suzanne's. Lots of food, lots of family, and lots of fun. I am thankful for that. Last year thanksgiving was hard to say the least. Going to the park with friends made it a lot better, and I am thankful for that memory.

I am intentionally directing my thankfulness to God, I think that is important.

I am so thankful for my relationship with God. He is my rock. I am thankful for Jer. 29:11.

I am thankful to God for my husband. I heard from the Lord, at a very young age, that this was the man he made just for me. He completes me. (I talk in movie quotes) He loves me, he protects me, he guides me, he provides for me, and he makes me laugh.

I am thankful to God for my children. I am thankful that I can close my eyes and see Tayler. See her round face and big smile, hear her laugh. I am so thankful that I will see her again one day. I am thankful for Megan, she is so sweet, she has such a servants heart. She is such a blessing to me. I am thankful God knew we needed an Emily. I am so thankful for Joshua our boy, our wild hilarious sweet sweet boy.

I am thankful for family, my mom, my Suzanne, all my dads, and everyone else. I am thankful for my friends, who are like family. The people in my life who I know have been put there by God.

Thankful for technology. I am a gadget junkie. For food, I love food. For music, I love music. For everything that makes life sweeter. For life itself, and the opportunity to be His hands and His feet.