Emotional Roller coaster

You may have been wondering where I have been...well I have not been at an amusement park. The roller coasters at an amusement park are fun, the one I have been on is not. I have been having a really hard time over the past few weeks. This is some but not all of what I have been dealing with...

guilt, scratch that, anger, scratch that, guilt, scratch that, anger.

See what I mean about it being a roller coaster. Anyway...

guilt

anger

anxiety

loneliness

depression

thankfulness

gratefulness

sadness

disappointment

love

exhaustion

I have been being prayerful throughout this time.
I am married to the most wonderful man who if at any time while I am on this roller coaster I feel I need to throw up will hold my hair back for sure.
Please stay tuned for future posts I have a lot on my heart, and three wonderful children who provide me with a wealth of hilarity I wish to share with the world.

Planet Earth

Currently the discovery channel is rebroadcasting Planet Earth. This makes me very happy. This documentary series is exceptional. I find it absolutely fascinating, and I could easily watch it over and over again.The question I have is this... How can anyone watch this or any program like it and deny God? I just don't get it. Evolution as an explanation for how everything on this planet has a purpose and plays a part in the grand scheme of things seems far fetched at best. When I watch this documentary and I see how a certain animal has exactly what it needs, as far as body type, or lives exactly where it needs to live to survive I feel like I need to praise God. When I see an animal in its natural environment doing what it was created to do, it is always obvious to me that, that behavior is instinctive. I never think to myself wow that animal is very smart to figure out how to do that. I don't want to knock what other people believe. I honestly just don't get it. The awesomeness of creation, in my eyes, can only be explained by pointing out that God himself is totally awesome. Even if I wasn't a christian I think I would have a hard time swallowing evolution as an explanation for creation. There is just something about creation that identifies itself with God the Father.

Easier said then done!

It has been my experience that the plan of action is often easier said then done. Just recently after taking my son to the eye doctor we found out that unfortunately glasses alone are not correcting the problem. The doctor informed me that my son will have to wear a patch over his good eye to strenghthen his weak eye. NOT HAPPY. So wanted the glasses to work. Thinking about how he will look at the park with a patch and glasses . I know not a big deal. MOVING ON. Time to ask questions. How often does he have to wear it? "All the time." How long? "Maybe years." WHAT? Did he just say maybe years? Back to being upset. MOVING ON. "See you guys back in a month." Ok, lets do this. Thinking that my son is never going to wear a patch and glasses, I'm nervous. Very relieved to see the patches are like band aids. Real life thought..."I hope they stick good. They dont! That is my problem. They dont stick. So what am I to do? Possibilities running through my head...

1. glue the patch on (not a joke)
2. wrap his whole head with gauze and tell him he is no longer a pirate, hes a mummy.
3. black out his lense like you would a check engine light
4. tape a cotton ball over his eye
5. hope he gets that eye illness where the crust forms and you cant open your eye (joke)